02 - JUST_'AH'.MP3

i crossed my feet
i felt every muscle in my chest and stomach go rigid
the edge of the headrest dig in to my neck because i couldn't relax
i tried to hear silence in my head
and eventually my muscles started to vibrate softly inside my legs as i tried to relax

y?_

you can't let any body know

Yeah thats right

trying to remember what it's like when it didn't hurt

it's the horror of what is missing or what is lost
casting a shadow over everything and everyone

yes mango! prime minister of midnight snacks!

THANKS FOR YOUR TIME AND YOU CAN THANK ME FOR MINE AND AFTER THAT'S SAID, FORGET IT __BAG IT, MAN

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Vicariously

trying

don't understand anything anymore

What uniform will i wear to hide the heavy?

I can't believe i have to eat every single day.

The only times i wasn't looking at you were times when i'd tell myself stop looking.

This is everything i am. How to stay alive?

& what for

eating baklava, pumpkin lard soup, eggs in butter, orange juice

outside feels so far away when i look out the window, my feet are cold from being so still i think

SLEEP - THIS HEAT

never safe
neverever

BABY HONEY

up for 34 hrs./if a tree falls in the forest and no one is there to hear it does it make a sound
/WHEN /WAVES

spent